losing a pet
I should have posted this here long ago. My puppy, Steffi is no more. She passed away on 21st June at 6:30am. She was hit by a school van.
I was in a state of extreme shock and sadness and could not get myself to do anything, forget blogging. It has been exactly 2 weeks today. I have come to accept the fact that she is no more, she is never coming back and there is nothing I can do about it. It still hurts so bad every time I think of that fateful day but I try not to cry.
I still think of her all the time. I keep telling myself again and again that she is in a better place now. I read about rainbow bridge and I like to think, there she is. She is running, playing, digging holes, eating eggs and is happy….and we shall meet again someday, on that rainbow bridge. I hope she will come to me then, running, wagging her tail and licking me all over…like she used to welcome us always. She was with us for only 2 months but it seems like she was here always. She had grown big and beautiful. She was naughty and spoiled, she would nip and bite and growl. But during her last days with us, she had learned so much. Her puppy teeth had fallen and new ones were coming. She had learned her ways around house. She knew where to poop and pee. She knew when mom will come back from work and how to welcome her. She knew that is she made a puppy innocent face, she could get anything from us. And when I kissed her, she would lick me back.
The story of that fateful day when we lost her and days that followed is a long one. I will write all about it someday. I still have my exams going on. I have written 2 so far and they went really bad but somehow it does not matter to me…3 more to go. I have an exam day after tomorrow. These are my final exams and I will get 2 months off after this. 14 days back, I knew exactly what I was going to do in these vacations…and I was eagerly waiting. Now, when I think of having 2 months holidays, alone at home…the thought scares me.
I know, only someone who has ever owned a pet, loved it and lost it, can understand the pain, the agony, the anguish and sorrow of losing a little friend. Losing a pet hurts as much as losing a family member. Steffi was my baby and I will never forget her. I will write more about my dear sweet girl Steffi after my exams. I will do something in her memory. Her memories are all I have now. She will always remain in my heart. She will always be missed.
Please pray for her sweet soul.
