Archive for August, 2007
implusiveness!
Its a long blog, its funny but its a rant 
I am kinda pissed off at a friend of mine. I am also pissed off at myself. I am so damn impulsive and I hate it! I make decisions and do things without thinking about the consequences. I have had this problem since forever. Everything I do or day, every action I take in life is done on impulse. I never think about anything twice and this leads to so many troubles in my life.
For example, it leads to big fights and misunderstandings between me and my boyfriend so many times. It leads to fights with my good friends. It causes me lot of problems. Even, online I sometimes do things that I regret later. Why am I so impulsive and if I am…why can’t just let it be?
Last night I did something online (height of being a loser?) and turned off my computer. I went to watch tv and kept on thinking about what I had done and came back to turn the computer on and undo what I had done, turned of the computer again and went to watch tv again….and again came back to redo what I had done before! Damn it kept on going for sometime and I finally went back to sleep to wake up this morning and undo the thing once again! It happens many times that I post a blog and then go back and keep editing it again and again because I feel I should not have said this or that. Its too much, I feel sorry for myself for being so indecisive and so confused.
So many times I really wish that life had an undo function like computer programs 
